In almost every answer you picked the harshest wording about yourself. That's what the pattern looks like at full occupation: the fear doesn't let go, the wins don't get claimed, the challenges get bypassed, and working yourself down never buys the feeling of belonging. One more thing needs saying: sometimes answers like these come not from the heaviest pattern but from a habit of describing yourself in the most merciless words available — that habit is part of the picture too.
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